M O T H E R

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On the phone with you telling you about my problems and all you can say is wow .
Sometimes I try to hide how I feel but how can you not hear when my flaws are screaming out loud .
Without choice it’s your face I seek within the crowd. I yearn to Hear your voice . I reach out my hand to you .
Can’t seem to find you my mother why are you not here .
You were the one who was supposed to reassure me, to save me, to take away the fear .
But who’s hand do I hold ? Who’s shoulder do I lean on when you’re not there .
I’m lost in the vicious world without a guide .
I walk blind through the trails and tribulations that we call life .
No one to teach my how to ‘woman’ no one to teach me how to ‘mother’
No one to teach me how to love or how to treat a lover
I’m a victim of this world an everything that surrounds me
Like a dry sponge left to absorb all of the world around me
In my head sits a child crying out for her mother . Where are you mother
I need you can’t you see ? My whole world is crumbling right beneath my feet
I’m slipping through the cracks of the very thing you gave to me :

LIFE!

-Z.N

 

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Dear Brain,

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Dear brain,
Why are you so evil 

The flashing images 

Imagination too grand 

One thought has me falling

Tunnels of darkness 

Mood instantly switched 

These flashing images 

I create them

Seeing images I should see

Hearing conversations I shouldn’t be

It’s not even real

False images 

Stop me in my tracks 

Brain how do you do this 

Make me feel this 

Pain ten times worse 

Fears magnified 

Insecurities strengthen

Heart weakens 

You torture me brain 

Be silent!
-Z.N


(No structure, just random lines from my mind)

Silence

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Lately these herbs haven’t been medicating my pain

The numbness brought by blasting music in my ears

The beats silence my thoughts

But the pain from the headache won’t go away

I hurt in silence

I yearn for silence

Your silence is filled with laughter and joys from the voice of another

My silence is filled with the haunting memories of our love

My king has let me down…

 

 

(to be continued…)

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The Secret to Beautiful Long Lashes !

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      If you are anything like me you dream for long, thick beautiful eyelashes! Well I have the trick to getting long healthy eyelashes without breaking your wallet!

In the past two years, I was introduced to false lashes. I tried it once and was hooked ! Not only would I get strips I would also get individual eyelashes . I just absolutely loved the way it made me look. Unfortunately, from constantly wearing eyelash extensions and not know how to properly take them off, I began to lose my real lashes ! So, I stopped using false lashes but I was left with nearly bald eyes =( . I began to do research  (as always lol) to try and find a way I can regrow my lashes. I found many different solutions but the trending way was using the lash serums found in the local CVS or rite-aid but I wasn’t interested. For one, they are all usually on the pricey side and also they have a bunch of ingredients that I know nothing about and I am absolutely against using unnatural products and chemicals. SO I continued my search. 

 

      Eventually i came across something called castor oil. Castor oil is :

100% Pure Castor Oil is expeller-pressed from the seed of Ricinus communisand is virtually odorless and tasteless. While it’s applicable in many other areas of wellness‚ Castor Oil is considered by many to be one of the finest natural skin emollients available today. Also known as Palma Christi (the “Palm of Christ”)‚ castor oil celebrates a history of use that dates back to biblical times. Since then‚ it has been used therapeutically to help support and soften healthy skin and hair‚ and is commonly used in some of today’s most popular cosmetic and beauty formulas. – See more at: http://www.pureformulas.com/castor-oil-16-oz-by-now.html#sthash.sq1wayM4.dpuf”

      I began researching ways to use castor oil for eyelash growth and I was liking what I was seeing so I decided to order me some. 

      I apply castor oil to my eyelashes twice a day, right before bed and in the morning, using a spooly brush. A spooly is basically a mascara brush. I have been doing this for about 3 weeks and the results so far are AMAZING! I definitely see a huge difference in the fullness and length of my lashes. when I apply mascara you can really notice the change. I definitely recommend you to try castor oil if you are trying to achieve luscious lashes . It worked for me !

IMPORTANT !!! YOU MUST MAKE SURE YOU BUY 100% PURE CASTOR OIL , THERE ARE MANY PRODUCTS THAT SAY CASTOR OIL BUT AREN’T 100% NATURAL CASTOR OIL!!!!!

 

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      You can purchase casor oil at : http://www.pureformulas.com/castor-oil-16-oz-by-now.html  – it is very inexpensive and free shipping

      I purchase my spooly brushes at amazon : http://www.amazon.com/Disposable-Eyelash-Mascara-Brushes-Wands/dp/B005QDL1K4/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1399485408&sr=8-2&keywords=eyelash+brush

 

Tips :

      You can also use castor oil to grow/thicken your eyebrows !

      Simply apply the castor oil to your brows. Or if you want it to grown in a desired shape : Line your brows using Vaseline (putting the Vaseline in the areas that you do not want hair to grow , then put castor oil on brows over desired areas. By using the Vaseline you stop to castor oil from increasing the hair growth on the covered area by focusing only on the hair you want to grow. (do this method if you would like your eyebrows to have an arch) . Do this every night and wash it off in the morning.  :      

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YELLOW INDICATES WHERE YOU PU THE VASELINE AND RED INDICATES WHERE YOU PUT CASTOR OIL

 

 

– Zoraya Noel 

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Bio Oil Journey : Update #1

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So as you may know, about a month ago I started my bio oil journey to try get rid of some of my terrible stretch marks.

According to research, when using bio oil religiously( once in the morning/once at night) you should see results by about 3 weeks. SO I decided to test that theory. I have been using Bio oil twice a day EVERYDAY and honestly I am very disappointed. I wasnt expecting a miracle or anything but a lot of people did swear they had seen a difference in the first month. I honestly do not see much change =( . Maybe I am just one of the unlucky few.

The bottle of Bio Oil is 4.2 fl oz and I have used a little more than half of the bottle in one month. I will continue to religiously use the Bio Oil and document my results. I will post the next update in a month . HOPEFULLY I’ll see a difference !

Fingers Crossed !!!!!!

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P.s I know I don’t have the worst stretch marks but i just don’t like em !

Beginning of my Bio-Oil journey

June 16th 2013 I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Desiree. I love her with all my heart BUT not only was I blessed with an amazing baby ,I was also cursed with….. STRETCH MARKS !!!!. They are everywhere !; Stomach ,butt &  thighs. 😥  ..

So me, the research junkie, began to search and search for the miracle cure for the dreaded stretch marks. Other than the people who say there’s no cure, the one product I did see very often was Bio Oil . So I started researching it and read countless reviews and watched numerous youtube video til’ I decided I’ve got to get me some !

Last week I finally ordered my bio oil. I got an amazing two for on deal on Amazon (I’m an amazon fiend) . &finally yesterday it arrived. My journey begins! .. I will see if this product really works. I’m using it twice daily and in a month will post my first bio oil journey update ,with before and after pictures . They claim you will see results in as little as 3 weeks ,so I’ll be the judge of that !

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-Zoraya :*

*Autobiography coming soon*

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Slacking :(

See , I’m slacking already ! ,I was supposed to be posting atleast once a week but so much has been going on and I haven’t had access to a computer aaand my phone is crappy

Ughhh so many excuses I know .. Soon I will commit to my blog

promise!

biography coming soon ……

Welcome zoraya !!!

So i been wanted to start a blog so this is looong overdue . It’s 2014 and my resolution is to just DO … I always say “I’m gunna do this “or “I wanna do this” ..so this is me , finally “DOing” … Ah it feels good … I know I should probably start off with a biography ,or by telling a little about myself , but it’s 11:27pm and I’m booone tired ,so not tonight… Wow first post to my blog.. Feels like such a big relief. This is my year ! 2014 , my year of accomplishing goals ! (biography coming soon)